P R O M I S E S

You promised me a lot of things. You promised me that you will always be there, that you won't leave no matter how difficult the situation is, that you will be my family, that you will help me... but where are you now? Why are you doing this? Why are you making me feel like I'm not a part of your life anymore - worse, as if I didn't matter to you AT ALL. Why? What have I done for you to change? Am I not enough? Are you bored? Or are you just simply with me because there's no one else that you can be with?

Just right now, you made another promise to me. What shall I do? Prepare myself for better or for the worst? 

I Thought

I thought LOVE lasts for a lifetime. I was wrong. Some people you meet are not really meant for you, some will teach you a lesson or two, some will hurt you, some will make you cry, some will break your heart... then there would be this person whom you will love no matter how difficult it is. That no matter how wrong it is, once you are together everything will be alright... but I was wrong again. Is it wrong to love someone? Is it wrong to show your feelings? I thought love is not wrong - as long as you love one another... it isn't wrong... Then how come LOVING you is wrong? 

Him....

Why am I crying? I just saw his message that he misses me and that he wishes that I was there with him… same college, same place, same time… no distance to separate us, no people to contradict us… no time difference…

I really miss him and I don’t know why I feel this way. I want to see him at this very moment but I can’t, I want to hug him, to kiss him and do what couples normally do when they are together - but we can’t… and it’s breaking my heart I don’t know how long I could still hold on and wait for, wait for us to be together… I don’t want to give up what we have, we've been together for so long and my love for him have grown really deep… I only want him to be with forever in my life - in this life and the lives hereafter.

I never loved anyone like this. Only him.

I long for him. I miss him so much…

By reading this, I know that you would think that we’ve seen each other before but no - we haven’t met yet. I know that there’s a lot of questions going on in your mind right now but all I can say is that, “I love him with all my heart and with all that I have. I trust him that he would come for me. I trust God that He would let us to be together forever. Fate and destiny have brought us together and I won’t give up on him - never, because he never gave up on me… and all this time, I know that our love for each other is true.”

Survived One Year in College!

At first I thought college life would be pretty the same thing as high school but I was wrong, really really wrong.  I had great difficulty adjusting with a lot of things:

1.  Before, I only used to travel for less than 30 mins going to school and another coming home.Now, I have to travel more than an hour going to college and another coming back home. It's pretty much tiring and until now I am not yet used to it. 
2. Friends. I adjusted to the new people around me. I always have to remind myself that my friends won't be around anymore whenever I needed their help. I admit that one time, when my college fellows and I were walking and I was thinking of something and was walking ahead of them - I turned around and almost called one of them the name of my best friend. 
3. Time table. I'm used to a whole day schedule but college is different. Everyday there is something to be submitted, everyday there is something to study and everyday I have a drawing to finish and to submit.  
4. Sleep. Before I have all the time to leisure to sleep and laze around but now, that's IMPOSSIBLE.
5. Grading System. Before, we already have a grade of 70 right away but that's a failing grade already and have to take up extra classes but don't get me wrong, I don't do extra classes and I passed all my classes without any difficulty. But now, I really do have to study hard and balance everything because of the grading system of the university that I am in. Would you believe that it's a zero - based system? Which means if you failed, you fail, if you passed you simply pass and if you did good, well then that's excellent. We should at least get a grade of 70 to pass. For short we have to do our very, very, very best to get a good reasonable grade. 
6. Teachers to Professors. In my own opinion, my teachers way back from high school have a heart to help their students when they fail. In college? Nah, the students must show all of their efforts to the professor, and they should be the only one reaching out, not the typical professor and student effort, it's like a student-and-only student efforts.

There's a lot more than this, a day is not enough to tell all the differences between high school and college. And I really do miss everything about my high school life, my friends, my teachers and even enemies! :P lol 

Missing you

I miss my boyfriend sooo much. I know that it was just hours ago since we last talked but I was not in a good mood when we talked to each other, and I regret talking to him that way.... He left to go to his aunt's place and I don't know when he will come back... All I can do now is wait for him to come back... Hope that he is safe too.... 

Who is your best friend and how did you meet him/her?

lol....Actually I have more than one best friend....but most of them i met at school

Ask me anything

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